I am leaving tomorrow to catch a plane to Melbourne, where I plan to enjoy myself greatly, meeting up with some bloggy friends, and then down to Bendigo for the Sheep and Wool show. I have been HANGING OUT for this holiday, friends.
Friday at work I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. I had reached the point, previous to that, where it was too much energy to even give a damn. I mean, I was still doing my work, still earning my keep. But… it was getting harder and harder to pretend that I cared. Which is a horrible feeling because I do care, I do like my job. I just… needed a holiday.
It had reached the point where I had the energy to live a normal life, or to work. So I worked, and did almost nothing else. I have pretty much seen one person outside of work for the last month. Which, ironically, makes me tireder, because socialising can be one of those things that revitalises you. But I just have not had the resources. I was running on empty.
But friday, just knowing that I was shaking the dust of work off of my feet for a week and a half… I felt so much more like my normal self! And it was a shock to realise how long since I have felt ‘normal’.
Really, I don’t want you to get me wrong. All I seem to do on this blog is whinge about how tired I am. And I have been ridiculously tired lately. But I know it’s something that will pass and it is, already.
I am apparently obsessed with this wattle on my street.
I am enjoying doing the year in pictures, although somedays it’s strangely hard to get the camera out. Here is the only picture I took all of yesterday.
Not very inspiring, is it? But that was such a nice day. Let me tell you about it.
I got up and caught the bus into town. I went traipsing around town looking for a flameproof casserolle that wasn’t a million dollars. I spent an hour doing this, and then in the last ten minutes, I found the perfect one, and put it on layby (since I want more spending money for Bendigo!) and also bought a new stock pot. Then I rushed off to see a talk from the Adelaide Festival of Ideas with a friend. We went to the ‘sex, knowledge and society’ talk, and it was fantastic. It’ll be podcast if you’re interested – I wanted to go in again for the ‘shame’ one today, but there was too much going on and I haven’t left the house. But nevermind, I shall podcast that, too!
It felt so good to just sit and think. I haven’t done that for a while. And then we left the hall and talked about it. Bliss! I remember when I was a thinking person… I miss that.
This evening I seamed up my Rogue. It’s been done for a week or two, but sitting in pieces. I realised that the whole point of it was to wear it to Bendigo, so I had better get it put together! I’m wearing it now – the sleeves are an incy bit short, but I think when I wash it they’ll ease out – I steam blocked it prior to seaming, but the sleeves are hemmed. Otherwise, it is just about perfect!
I also cleaned and tidied the house. It feels so much better – and not just cos it’s cleaner. I realised I was standing straighter, looking up more. I feel more comfortable, less cramped in my own skin. And I’ve only been on holiday two days, both of those normal weekend days!
Here is today’s YIP
I can see these from the loungeroom window, and they make me so happy!
This appears to be a bit of a nothing post. But I wanted to blog before I set off for Victoria… I am feeling a bit anxious about the travelling, for no reason at all. Or maybe there’s a reason – I only have one project to take with me! I’ve started the lace on Juno, which is lovely. But it’s a concentratey project, and everything else I have is in one stage or another of problem. Maybe I’ll have to cast something on to take… wouldn’t that just be terrible!